They say sometimes the right thing to do is often the hardest thing to do.  Well, I don't know if that is true.  And what if every option seems difficult?  I've been doing a lot of "soul searching" this week.  I feel like I've lost direction and need to regain that.  But, I have no idea what direction I need to get back on track with.  I feel like I'm back in my Underwater Navigation Course and I got stuck with the broken compass that keeps me about 15 degrees off from where I need to be.  It's not a huge error, but just enough to keep me frustrated and questioning if I'm doing it right.  I know I am only 25, and so having it all figured out is definitely not a requirement.  But, I'm such a planner.  I like to be able to look ahead a few years and at least have an idea of who I will be, where I will be, what I'll be doing, who will be around with me.  And, a lot of that seems very foggy.  It's really starting to weigh me down. 

Maybe I just need to put it aside. Get through the holidays and the next few weeks and then focus on it again.  Perhaps my holiday mope is getting in the way.  Every year I get older, it seems like Christmas and New Years are losing more and more holiday "magic."  Maybe this upcoming year will bring me some of that clarity and this time next year, I can be wrapped up in holiday magic and not so stressy.  Heh, I think it all comes down to me chilling the eff out and learning to enjoy where I'm at.

My, this was not the chipper blog I have been doing so far.  I hope I don't drive anyone to drink or to sharp objects.  I'm  not meaning to come off depressed.  Overall, I'm not depressed.  Just taking a step back and looking at my life.